so, who am i?

these are things i have been called: cringe. selfish. crazy. freckled hawaiian. indigenous. do-er of nothing. man-hating. “a fucking child”. silly/little thing. weak. dramatic. born-for-the-stage. performer. surprisingly social, but kind-of bad at it. mediocre. off-putting. mommy-kink girl. rotting girl. “mid” girl. barely-girl. almost-girl. 

i call myself: anuhea. i am an indigenous, queer, and autistic creator who finds it hard to exist in the short-form e-space. i have lived many lives in your algorithm: being viral on the internet, disappearing, and– now– carving out a space where i can process the world around me. i created this substack in reaction to being objectified and misunderstood on the internet. plus, my mom (who i still live with at the ripe age of nearly-24) is *very* tired of me info-dumping on her when i get home from work.

thus: Social Deficit is born– my rosemary’s baby ✨

Social Deficit is a love letter to the off-putting and tediously cringe. it is space to explore the dusty corners of my mind. it is a lake to drown myself (and you) in topics that make the common pedestrian uncomfortable and uneasy. i will ramble on about things people instruct me not to say on a first, second, or third date. i will dive into the sludge of modern culture, searching in the seaweed for treasure while strapped with the perspective of a misfit girl. 

i hope the other people labeled ‘socially inept’ and/or ‘misfit’ will find me here and call my writing names (positive name-calling is a plus but is not a requirement). at the very least, i promise to entertain you just as much as i do my mother after my part-time shifts.

note: my writing deals with triggering themes ranging from abuse to sh. read at your own discretion!

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