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Bug's avatar

I’ve felt sometimes that love is consuming by nature and often times people choose (knowingly or not) to let it consume the other person rather than be consumed by their love themselves. I do worry that as I get further in my transition the love I feel from certain friends will make a shift from one to the other. I hope, if it does occur, at the very least I hope for the aftertaste to be sweet. As usual I loved this piece, I read it before work and haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since.🫶

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anuhea's avatar

you are always so insightful :) the journey is so specific and i wish you ease throughout each beautiful stage. you’re amazing

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Dakota's avatar

You ATE

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anuhea's avatar

you are very nice to me thank you.

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Kapili's avatar

banger essay

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anuhea's avatar

love u

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(Alexandra) Apple's avatar

Wow this is making me re-question a few past friendships 😬

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anuhea's avatar

yeahhhh 😭

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(Alexandra) Apple's avatar

Its when u described the stink face 😂 I was like oh shiiiii

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Cami, the Author's avatar

Very on point. Female friendships are so important but toxic ones absolutely demoralizing. Love you.

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anuhea's avatar

yes!!

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Stella's avatar

a biting confession, why do we do this to ourselves?

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anuhea's avatar

real. i think we can’t control when someone is mean to us, but we can start to hold ourselves accountable for continuing to associate with leechy dynamics. why are we putting our heads in the sand? we don’t have to spend years trying to explain away behaviors!!! we can be real with ourselves!

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morgan's avatar

so good

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anuhea's avatar

thank you so much sweet morgan ❤️🤭

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Caroline Beuley's avatar

ooff the absolute worst kind of "friend."

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anuhea's avatar

yeah it really sucks, and it can feel complicated.

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Caroline Beuley's avatar

sooo complicated. the line between love and hate can be quite thin

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nia !'s avatar

Incredible

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anuhea's avatar

niaaaa 😊

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pinkstar's avatar

i love this and hate it bc it’s too real and that’s lowk scary and i had big plans this summer to reconnect w my “carmilla” which i know if i told anyone in my life they would immediately start an intervention but i still don’t care i think i miss her

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zoeywithfourys's avatar

this describes everything I’ve ever felt in middle school SO perfectly

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Orlando Silver's avatar

fuck yes. Could not love this more.

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notes app narrator's avatar

I love everything about this. The raw beauty of your unique metaphors, how close it hits to home, every point and every word choice. I gulp down everything you post the moment I see it in my inbox, and then I revisit it again, and again, and here I am finally commenting on my fifth read-through of this piece. I recognized my own Carmilla in #1-#5, down to the point made about how her advice will never hit home, how she is a fein for judgment always looking at others through a slitted side-eye, how she wants everything you have including your partner (something I admitted to myself much later than I should have, because I was too busy steeping myself in the poison). Wonderfully written, gorgeously raw, and everything I hoped it would be when you hinted at it ahead of time. Thanks for sharing! 💕

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notes app narrator's avatar

And of course, the reminder we all needed from one of the wisest to ever do it — that love is never any better than the lover. Perfection, all of it. I know I’ll be back again.

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Nati's avatar

I am sending this to my therapist to discuss during our next session lml.

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Paris Levin's avatar

I always adore how viscerally you write relationships and relate them to the body <3

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